Jai Shri Ram
I have a very peculiar request to make. But I sincerely seek the guidance of Sadguru Hanumanji to mend my nature here.
In spite of worshipping Sadguru Hanumanji and Sri Ram, I am a very timid person. Personally I feel that I am angry sort. but my nature is very suppressible. I am unable to pull out the anger.
Example - These days Road rages are very common incidents. for no fault of ours we encounter some quarrelsome and highly abusive person who reprimands us with out any reason. I feel extremely angry at these things but my timid nature urges me to escape from such a scene and avoid confrontations and quarrels. Although once I am away from there, my body will be trembling with rage and kind of fear of consequences.
This holds good in most of confrontational scenarios like office, personal etc. After the incident for long time I remain disturbed and upset over my timidity. Thinking and rethinking of the consequences and the untold inconveniences, I avoid most of confrontations and quarrels with anybody. I feel that I am becoming week because of this.
I pray to Sadguru Hanumanji to mend my nature in this regard. I do not know how I can become fearless. Please advise me on building courage.
Waiting for your response.
Jai Sri Ram
When your body-mind does something which your soul doesn't approve, then body starts trembling/ behaving strangely. Your soul doesn't desire conflict. When Asurrahs residing in abusive people contaminate your mind, your body-mind gets enraged and your soul stops recognizing/accepting enraged body-mind.
Lord Hanuman cannot take your soul backward. It has come to this level after many births. Making it desire conflict means taking it backward.
The alternative solution is to make use of Asurrahs. When you need to confront a person, let your soul fly away from your body-mind for some time. Let an Asurrah take over your body-mind and handle the situation. Then you will find yourself more courageous. Once the situation is over, you may return to your good-nature self and your soul will come back. But make sure that the Asurrahs do not contaminate you. Just use them like a tool and throw away once used.